My Butterfly Phobia!

Butterflies are the most beautiful creation of God!

i know that...i admire their beauty when they are not anywhere near me...But when they fly towards me, i am scared..and i do all sorts of things to get away or run to amma and keep requesting her to kill it...i dont even go near a dead one...The big brown moths,cocroach and butterflies are the scariest to me...this habit has earned me a hell lot of scoldings from my dad and mom ,right from my childhood itself...frankly speaking, i wanted to get away from this fear... My dad has tried a lot this way,but every attempt failed....my friends always used to make fun of me for my fear for butterflies. But they dont know what goes in my mind!i am totally disturbed!

One day , i saw people at home staring at me when i was back home from school..i thought wat happened to them....i asked amma what's wrong about me...she said nothing...dad was smiling at me. When i got inside my room, and stood infront of the mirror,i suddenly saw an Ugly Butterfly on my skirt...OMG! i felt that it was staring at me with its huge eyes as if it would eat me up. i made a big mess at my home that day...i was crying as i ran to amma...then dad took it out of the house...i couldnt sleep well for th next few days.. even if i slept ,i suddenly woke up thinking that something s disturbing the air around me...i Hate all flying creatures! How i wish God had not created these creatures!!

Dunno,wats yet to come up! now my parents are there to safeguard me,

as they know how terrible my feelings are ,on seeing butterflies! My mom

says that Human beings are the most dangerous ones in this earth...not these innocent ,harmless creatures..I know they r harmless but i cant help it...  'god please help me out of my butterfly phobia'....

Y This cruelty to my dear ones!!

My "dear ones" ;i meant all those who are born with abnormal 

health conditions like downsyndrome or any other genetic and 

chromosomal defects...

[This is my experience that i would like to share with all of u]

Large sized head, protruding almond shaped eyes ,prominent 

tongue, short legs etc distinguishes these induviduals from normal 

human beings. They are neither beautiful nor intelligent ,but they 

have a sensitive heart. They might have mental and physical disabilities, 

they are always dependent but they are also a part of this world. 

Family and relationships are meant for them too. 

i have seen many times how a family near my home,treats their only 

child ,who is affected with downsyndrome. The mother in the family beat 

him whenever she sees the child in front of her. i saw her stamp on his chest, 

for lying down on the way.how can a mother behave in this way...i don't know. 

he seemed dirty always , salivating constantly,wearing dirty clothes.He 

always made a peculiar noise and watched around him like a brutal beast.. 

i saw him always crying..whenever i passed his house ,i saw him looking out 

of the window . i never forgot to smile at him and he smiled at me back. 

i really feel for his miseries. But some days he threw stones at me ...one

day he even gave me a biscuit ..i was his only friend.. His parents lack 

the knowledge to realize that this child could have been much better 

if they had given him good treatment and also send him to the school 

for mentally retarded.. God loved him ..that i knew because 

another lady who used to curse him always and make fun of him ,

got a defective child for herself. God taught her how much he cared 

for him. And he is no more now!

i know how my aunt looks after my cousin brother..she loves him so 

much and she treats him as if he is normal. She taught him everything 

about how to be in a family. But he wont talk properly neither can he 

call 'appa' 'amma' . He goes to 'The School for Mentally Retarded' 

by Rev. Fr . Felix. i always felt that he is more intelligent than 

else in our family.he plays all kinds of musical instruments. he knows 

painting , embroidery and many other skills which even normal humans 

cant do. He was made to explore and develop the dormant abilities within 

him..it worked wonders in his life.....

'Having a child with Down syndrome cannot be prevented' says 

medical reports . we are not to blame anybody for a baby having 

this condition. Nothing you did before or during pregnancy might 

have caused it. It occurs in all races, in all social classes and in all 

countries throughout the world. It can happen to anyone. Thank god 

for what we have and do care for the ones who are not lucky to live like 

us ,in this world.

LOVE is the medicine that can cure any defects. But it has to be 

in our hearts,ready to be shared , for the ones who are in need of it..

Understand their wants...Love them...Hurt them not...They too have feelings!

My Favourite Pic!

cool pic !
colourful!
pleasant!

Dedicated to all Nocturnals!

I would like to dedicate this blog to all those who stay awake

at night ,sacrificing their sleep,sitting online chatting and 

browsing..also to those who do night shift jobs.

[ information taken from The Hindu ,Dec 2]

Scientists suspect that staying awake during night disrupts the circadian rhythm, the body's biological clock. The hormone

Melatonin that suppress tumour development is produced normally at night. light shuts down melatonin production so people working in artificial lights will have low melatonin rates and are more prone to cancer. not getting enough sleep makes ur immune system vulnerable to attack and less able to fight off potentially cancerous cells.. The habit of Eating in the middle of the night,when ur supposed to be sleeping can also set off a chain reaction of biological mistakes...

Aren't these facts shocking? in this 20 th century when people 

seem to be busier at night than daytime...who bothers for the

their health.." Health Is Wealth". Nothing values more than ur

LIFE..........

My Alma mater

This is my school....the heaven on earth!

Vacations are a torture 4 me!

another university exam approaching like a hungry tiger!
ok !fine! lets face it! that should be the spirit na!but one month
long study leave is really a torture...i dont know! when this will
come to an end...and kerala university has an unbearable habit
of postponing exams upto six months may be or so.....
there should be a silly reason 4 a cause always rite! ............

let me just look back to a time in my life when i longed for
vacations .....thats was when i was at school....those were
unforgettable days..well let me not slip into nostalgic mood.
now its the other way round...i think my friends too
might agree to this ,as i find most of them finding some reason
or the other to come to college even during vacations........
engineering itself is meant 4 last minute studies....this attitude
has come up becoz of the new trend that " nobody wants a pure
techi "..thats y we the gecians prefer college days more than
vacations...
Frankly speaking ,i think university has meant by this study leave
somthing like - full day tv,chatting,orkutting or cool get togethers
........of coarse sleeeeeeeeeeping peacefully before a hell lot of
sleepless nights!(may be)...i feel so boring without the company of my friends......missing cool chats, hot last minute assignments ,roaming about in my so called GECB!how i wish we had classes for 15 days more......even class hours are quite enjoyable!!
missing GECB.........if any bujis happen to read this blog...please guys i am not interested in a word fight or a debate!!i am sorry to hurt bujis and the home sick!

About Me!

hi one and all....i am new to this website!

my name is Ancy Mariam Joseph.i am currently doing 5 th semester B.tech in information technology at govt.engineering college Barton hill Trivandrum. if anybody gets into the thought y i named my blog as Sara, i would like to explain it this way...'its my baptism name', which i like the most among both my names.. i am a catholic. my gratitude to my alma mater 'Holy Angels ISC school' and my home ,is beyond words ,for bringing me up ,having given me the mental and spiritual support to face my life. twelve years of sweet school life is something that i can never forget..i believe in the proverb'Work is worship' ..i work till i am satisfied and never cared for the consequences of it..even if its good or bad i always had a strong will power to face it.. failures have never stolen my hope! and frankly speaking there are'nt many failures yet in my life! i am lucky na! i thank the almighty for everything.i am very friendly , fun loving ,and straightforward. even though my straightforward attitude has ended me up in troubles many times....from heaven comes a way to get out of all problems...if there's a will there's a way...thats my policy..my favourite time pass is scribbling in my personal diary...it is said that a woman's mind is an ocean of secrets...but let that mind rest in a piece of paper...i dont prefer to bottle up everything in my mind.... my fellow beings may tell more about myself than my description of  'my self'....